I just did an update yesterday. But here I am doing another one! What is happening to me? No, but seriously I came across some very interesting pictures from this Chilean diario that I thought that the US should see. Not that all of the US reads this...
http://www.theclinic.cl/2009/02/07/negros/
and
http://www.theclinic.cl/2009/01/30/white-house/
Youre welcome.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Who reads this anyway?
Hello All. I have had a lot of time to think while here in Santiago. And Ive come up with a lot of new realizations. Not good ones. So prepare yourselves.
So Im an American in Paris, wait no Im not. Im a Korea American in Santiago. I actually dont know which is worse. An American in Paris probably has no shot in hell bumping friendlies (if one had no knowledge of the French language) with those, not so friendly to foriengers especially Americans, people. But at least you would wake up and have a decent view, historical culture, and a damn good croissant. But a Korean American in Santiago, has a little more than a no shot in hell, bumping friendlies with a Chilean (+1 for Santiago, maybe). Let me explain the maybe. Whenever I meet someone new, of coures theyll ask me “Where are you from?“ and of course I answer “Los Estados Unidos.“ And you can just see it in their eyes that that was NOT the answer they were looking for. And you know, when youre in the US and you are some color that an obviously white American cannot put a finger on (any type of Southeast, East, South Asian or Middle Eastern color to be more specific), and you tell them that you are American and they give you that look like, “come on, what are you really?“ Yea, thats the look I get all the time. So how do I respond to this? There are two options, I can just leave them wondering and not give into their stupid expression and let them assume that I am Chinese (which is what every Asian is in this country is according to them), OR I can give in and explain to them how Im ACTUALLY Korean and am basically a lucky biatch who got her American citizenship. All I can say is that Ive never felt so damn Asian in my life. Thank you UCLA for NOT preparing me for this. Stop accepting so many damn Asians. Just kidding. Power to the people...
So that should give you a taste of how comfortable I feel in this country. And on top of that I have some nasty broken Spanish that Im still uncomfortable with. But I will say, Im getting more comfortable with my uncomfortableness. If that makes any sense.
So Ive also realized why I came to this country. I mean besides the fact I wanted to get fluent in Spanish and didnt want to go to Costa Rica or Spain which were the only 2 other options and blah blah blah. Ive actually come here to put off my eventual pending doom of a future. Seriously, I will be going back to a country with an absolutely succesful economy and a place full of opportunity and opulence. I wont know what to do with myself. I have the worst time making decisions - so I mean there is no way I can choose what to do! Should I take that perfect job with a 6 figure salary, or that other perfect job with a 6 figure salary that comes with a diamond ring bonus when accepted. COME ON! Give me a challenge people.
But seriously, Ive been looking up jobs and there are absolutely NONE. I mean I do not want to be stuck in an office all day hating life. I freakin did that job in college (UCLA law school slave for 1.5 years baby). And I can feel those loans creepin up on me people. I just recently got a letter from SallieMae saying that I no longer have any opportunities to get semi-free money in order to f*** around in undergrad. So even if I wanted to stay in this gawd awful country for 6 more months, I have no government funding to help me! Tragic...
People say that you should try to stay in college for as long as possible, and the government just cut that opportunity off for me. Not that I want to be a 5th or 6th year like a lot of really motivated people I know. But seriously. My trust fund has been soaked to its last bone. But you know what, Im glad I used as much of it as I possibly could. Id really like to thank them for giving out free money to people like me. And also making it less and less valuable every year when our tuition got jacked up higher. That was also really awesome.
But seriously, I have no where to turn. Im actually thinking about that program everyone does in Korea. Teaching or whatever. And getting a miniscual amount of money doing it. I honestly didnt think I wanted to live in that country for more than a tourist wants to (2 weeks at max). But after coming to this country, it would be nice chillin with a bunch of my people for once. Damn. And you know what, Korean kids are the best. They are hilarious. Im just speaking from the fob kids Ive met in my lifetime. I dont know if thats a good representation of all kids in Korea. But whatevs.
Honestly people, if youve got money to spare and you are graduating, GO TRAVEL. That is the best thing to do. I think my most memorable and best experience Ive had so far, is travelling for 2 weeks. And soaking up some good old fashion culture and nature. Ive learned way more (about Chile and myself) travelling than taking lame ass classes at the University. As interesting or informative a class MIGHT sound, its always a boring ass class.
I am signing out. But I shall leave you with some more pictures from my adventure to the edge of the world, which I am now nostalgic for. Sigh.
Nevermind. I dont know how to use this...Sorrs.
Peace. J.
EDIT: Do u know where I wish I was? (Obv rather than here). Or wish I went to? SXSW. Dammit.
So Im an American in Paris, wait no Im not. Im a Korea American in Santiago. I actually dont know which is worse. An American in Paris probably has no shot in hell bumping friendlies (if one had no knowledge of the French language) with those, not so friendly to foriengers especially Americans, people. But at least you would wake up and have a decent view, historical culture, and a damn good croissant. But a Korean American in Santiago, has a little more than a no shot in hell, bumping friendlies with a Chilean (+1 for Santiago, maybe). Let me explain the maybe. Whenever I meet someone new, of coures theyll ask me “Where are you from?“ and of course I answer “Los Estados Unidos.“ And you can just see it in their eyes that that was NOT the answer they were looking for. And you know, when youre in the US and you are some color that an obviously white American cannot put a finger on (any type of Southeast, East, South Asian or Middle Eastern color to be more specific), and you tell them that you are American and they give you that look like, “come on, what are you really?“ Yea, thats the look I get all the time. So how do I respond to this? There are two options, I can just leave them wondering and not give into their stupid expression and let them assume that I am Chinese (which is what every Asian is in this country is according to them), OR I can give in and explain to them how Im ACTUALLY Korean and am basically a lucky biatch who got her American citizenship. All I can say is that Ive never felt so damn Asian in my life. Thank you UCLA for NOT preparing me for this. Stop accepting so many damn Asians. Just kidding. Power to the people...
So that should give you a taste of how comfortable I feel in this country. And on top of that I have some nasty broken Spanish that Im still uncomfortable with. But I will say, Im getting more comfortable with my uncomfortableness. If that makes any sense.
So Ive also realized why I came to this country. I mean besides the fact I wanted to get fluent in Spanish and didnt want to go to Costa Rica or Spain which were the only 2 other options and blah blah blah. Ive actually come here to put off my eventual pending doom of a future. Seriously, I will be going back to a country with an absolutely succesful economy and a place full of opportunity and opulence. I wont know what to do with myself. I have the worst time making decisions - so I mean there is no way I can choose what to do! Should I take that perfect job with a 6 figure salary, or that other perfect job with a 6 figure salary that comes with a diamond ring bonus when accepted. COME ON! Give me a challenge people.
But seriously, Ive been looking up jobs and there are absolutely NONE. I mean I do not want to be stuck in an office all day hating life. I freakin did that job in college (UCLA law school slave for 1.5 years baby). And I can feel those loans creepin up on me people. I just recently got a letter from SallieMae saying that I no longer have any opportunities to get semi-free money in order to f*** around in undergrad. So even if I wanted to stay in this gawd awful country for 6 more months, I have no government funding to help me! Tragic...
People say that you should try to stay in college for as long as possible, and the government just cut that opportunity off for me. Not that I want to be a 5th or 6th year like a lot of really motivated people I know. But seriously. My trust fund has been soaked to its last bone. But you know what, Im glad I used as much of it as I possibly could. Id really like to thank them for giving out free money to people like me. And also making it less and less valuable every year when our tuition got jacked up higher. That was also really awesome.
But seriously, I have no where to turn. Im actually thinking about that program everyone does in Korea. Teaching or whatever. And getting a miniscual amount of money doing it. I honestly didnt think I wanted to live in that country for more than a tourist wants to (2 weeks at max). But after coming to this country, it would be nice chillin with a bunch of my people for once. Damn. And you know what, Korean kids are the best. They are hilarious. Im just speaking from the fob kids Ive met in my lifetime. I dont know if thats a good representation of all kids in Korea. But whatevs.
Honestly people, if youve got money to spare and you are graduating, GO TRAVEL. That is the best thing to do. I think my most memorable and best experience Ive had so far, is travelling for 2 weeks. And soaking up some good old fashion culture and nature. Ive learned way more (about Chile and myself) travelling than taking lame ass classes at the University. As interesting or informative a class MIGHT sound, its always a boring ass class.
I am signing out. But I shall leave you with some more pictures from my adventure to the edge of the world, which I am now nostalgic for. Sigh.
Nevermind. I dont know how to use this...Sorrs.
Peace. J.
EDIT: Do u know where I wish I was? (Obv rather than here). Or wish I went to? SXSW. Dammit.
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